Waiting [One shot]

[Cuzzy]

Disclaimer- I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho.
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~When I first saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you, I was afraid to hold you. When I held you, I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.~

You were sitting on the bench in the park and thinking about the past few years. So many things have happened. So many things...condensed into a few short years...

Let's start from the beginning...


"Hey wait up!" You were running after Kurama to walk with him to school. "Man, you walk fast." You smiled at him.

"I'm sorry, I didn't see you before. Would you like to accompany me to school?" He asked and you nodded. YOu both walked to school occationally talking about random things. Finally you got to school and you parted ways. You knew Kurama for a long time. You knew that he was a spirit detective and his duties as one. YOu understood. But that doesn't mean that you didn't worry. The day went slowly and you were waiting till the bell rang signalling that it was time to go home for the long weekend. It would be Christmas break, but you were disappointed to see no snow yet. You loved the snow.

"Oh well, It will come soon." You smiled and went out to walk home. You got there and your parents were packing for the trip that they were going to . They were going to the Bahamas. They hated the cold and they knew that you liked it, so they agreed that you could stay. YOu watched them leave and you hugged them goodbye. You wouldn't see them for about 2 months. You were okay with it though. YOu wanted them to be happy. "Okay.....so now what. I have nothing to do. Oh I know I'll call Kurama to see if he is doing anything." You picked up the cordless phone and punched in Kurama's phone number. "Hello?....... OH hi Miss MInnamino.........Yes I am doing fine. How about you?.....That is good. I was wondering if Shuichi happened to be there?.......Okay I'll hold on........Hi Kurama. What's up? Are you doing anything?" You waited for an anwer. "No?........Okay, so do you want to hang out. I have nothing to do and I'm kind of bored........Great. That would be cool if you brought your friends along.....Okay, Well I'll see you in a few.,.....bye..." You hung up the phone and went upstairs to change. Finally you had something to do. When you were finished , you darted out the door. He told you to meet him at the park bench where you always met. You saw him and his friends and ran over to them. "Hey guys. What's up?" You look towards the other people there. There was a boy with slicked back black hair and there was a boy with orange hair elvis presley style, and the last one had spikey black hair that was kind of short. "So, Kurama, who are your friends? Oh...oooops" You covered your mouth. You didn't know if they knew that his real name was Kurama.

"No, _______, It's alright. They know. I'll introduce them to you. This is Yusuke, Kuwabara, and Hiei. They are also part of the spirit detectives." He pointed to every one that he introduced.

"Oh okay. Hi, my name is ______. It is nice to meet everyone. Especially since you all saved the Earth so many times. I am so happy that I got to meet you." You smiled and they nodded towards you.

"Hey, __________, you want to go to the movies? I heard that there was a good movie out. I think that it's called "The Grudge". Sound cool?" Yusuke suggested. You shrugged and looked at everyone else. They had a look that said, 'You get to choose'. So you did.

"That sounds great. What time does it start?" You looked at your watch. It said that it was 4:30 right now.

"I think that it starts at 5:00." He put his hand on his chin and though. Then he nodded.

"So, we should leave now. It is about 4:30 now. So does everyone agree with this?" Everyone nodded and you all started to walk towards the movies.

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The movie just ended and you all were going home. Yusuke said that he had to leave early because a girl name Keiko was going to kill him for ditching her again. Kuwabara said that he had to feed his kitten. So that just left you, Kurama, and Hiei. "So, Hiei, what kind of demon are you?" You asked out of curiosity.

"Hn. How did you know that I was demon." He glanced at you.

YOu shrugged. "I don't know. Lucky guess. You were either one of the weirdest person that I've ever met, or you were a demon. So, I thought about it and I just felt something. I dont know what it was, then I was sure that you were a demon." You looked towards Kurama and Hiei and they were staring at you like you were crazy. "What?!" It was uncomfortable to be looked at like that.

"I think that you felt his spirit energy and that is very uncommon in humans." Kurama answered.

"Oh, okay. So are you going to tell me what kind of demon you are?" He just hn'd and turned away. "Okay. You don't have to tell me. It is a personal question. I shouldn't have asked." You looked down ashamed.

"I'm half fire half ice apparition." You heard him whisper. YOu smiled at him and you all kepted walking. "Kitsune. I have to go. Bye." He looked towards you when he said that. 'Don't let people push you around. Baka ningen.' You heard him say in your head. You were a little surprised but smiled and thanked him in your head. You knew that he heard it. Then all of a sudden, you heard a ringing. It was Kurama's communicator.

"Hello, Koenma." Kurama said in a polite voice.

"Kurama. Get here immediately! I have info on a mission for you and you have to go to the Makai." YOu looked down and had a saddened expression on your face.

"Koenma, do you think that I can have a second to say good night to a friend?" You heard him say yes and he closed the communicator. "_____, I really have to go now. This mission is very dangerous and they need me." All you heard was 'very dangerous' echoing through your head. It kept getting louder and louder. You held your head to make it stop, but it wouldn't.

"Kurama. Please don't go." You said in an inaudible voice even Kurama couldn't hear. "Kurama?"

"Hmmm?"

"I have something to tell you. I.....Ever since we were little, you have protected me from anything and everything." You paused. A past memory played in your head.

Flashback//

A 9 year old you was walking down the sidewalk with a smile. You were going to Kurama's house to play. He was your only friend. He was always there for you. While in your thoughts, you were jerked back, when someone pulled your hair back. You winced.

"Hey, look. It wittle _____." A fat kid had a hold of your hair. "Watcha doin? Going to see your boyfwend?" He taunted.

You just at there on the ground and glared at the little boy. He didn't scare you at all. He wasn't worth the energy. Then, you heard shuffling of feet. "Let her go!" That voice was very familiar to you. You smiled.

"You can't hurt me. There's....." He counted his fingers. "4 of us and only one of you." The boy smirked.

"I said, let her go." His eyes were narrowing.

"No. You can't tell me what--" He was cut off when Kurama pushed him down. The boy let go of your hair. Then, when he landed he started to cry. "I'm going to tell my mommy on you!" With that, he ran home with the other boys in tow.

Kurama helped you up. "Are you okay?"

"Yes. But, you might get in trouble." He just smiled and you both walked to his house.

"It's alright. As long as your not hurt." You blushed and you both laughed and ran to his house to play on his playset.

End Flashback//

"_____, I really have to go." YOu put a hand up to his cheek and he stopped with his eyes wide open.

"I really have to say this Kurama." You whispered. "I never had the courage to tell you this for the longest time and it's been killing me inside, but now, I think that it is the best time to tell you this......I love you Kurama." YOu said with your bangs covering your eyes that betrayed your pleas to not spill the one thing that would show your emotions. Tears. "If you don't love me back. I would understand, But, I will never stop loving you Kurama!" You shouted with tears flowing freely from your eyes. You felt your hand slip from his face and land beside you. Then something surprised you. A hand placed itself on your cheek.

[Cuzzy]

You looked up and Kurama had a look of compassion, saddness, and another emotion that you couldn't place. "______.... I also, love you. I have for a long time." He leaned down and put his lips right near your ear and whispered, "and I will always love you too." It sent shivers up our spine. He pulled away and kissed you fully on the lips. You melted into his kiss and you felt his tongue brush against your lips. You complied by slightly parting your lips. His tongue started to explore it's new territory and yours shyly danced with his. You both broke apart and smiled at each other with love in eah other's eyes. "I have to go now. But I promise, I will be back."

"Can't I come with you. I can help!" YOu really wanted to help him.

"No, ______, you can't. I don't know what I would do, if you were to get hurt, or even worse, die in front of my eyes." His eyes showed sadness. "You have to stay here. And be safe. I promise, I will see the first snow with you." He knew you loved the snow and the cold. He leaned in closer and whispered. "I promise." Then he kissed you one last time before walking towards a portal in the woods. You had tears streaming down your face. Then you had a serious look on and you knew what to do. The portal was about to close, but you had to mask your scent. You got out the one thing that could help you. Kurama had made it for you. It was a potion that would hide your smell. He would never suspect that it would be used against him. You poured it all over you and jumped through the portal and landed on strange land.

You heard voices in the distance and decided to eaves drop. "Okay, men, you all have to get this demon." You saw a picture of an ugly demon with four arms and had ugly blue skin in the picture. "He is very powerful and will be easy to find because of his high spirit power. Just use Kuwabara's spirit awareness and you will find him in no time. I do have to tell you this though. This will be the hardest mission ever. Harder than the Dark Tornament and harder than the Chapter Black Case. This monster can destroy anything that it gets his hands on. Even worlds. His name is Kamian. He is a super S class demon. I don't know how it got out from it's layer in Makai. It's power is phenonminal and if i had to say the odds of you getting out alive, I would have to say about 10%" YOu held in your gasp.

"All the more fun to prove your stupid statistics wrong, diaper breath." That was Yusuke. "So, when are we going?"

"Now Yusuke. And to all of you, good luck." You heard a pop and the little baby was gone.

"Let's go then. Kuwabara. Use your spirit awareness. Maybe you can sense him." Yusuke commanded. You heared Kuwabara hmph. They started walking and you saw Kurama. You had to be careful not to let him notice you. You waited until they were out of earhot, which was really far away. Then you slowly walked towards them. they were walking slow so that was an advantage for you.

They have been walking for about an hour and you were getting hungry and tired. "Well It was my fault for not getting anything at the movies." You thought. Then you saw them stopped they were staring at something. You tried to look around them and finally succeeded. To your horror, it was the exact monster that was on the picture, except that it was about 1000 times bigger and it was destroying a village.

"Hey you!" You heard Yusuke scream. Now you knew who the leader was. "Come here and pick on someone who can actually fight back!" You saw Kurama lean in and say something. It sounded like something along the line of "Don't provoke him Yusuke." YOu saw the demon's eye flash and Kamien disappeared and reappeared in front of them. Towering over them as if they were little dolls that he can just squash.

In a very loud and deep voice you heard him speak. "Are you talking to me, you filthy ningen. You should know your place." He swiped at everyone and you were about the scream, but saw that everyone dodged. "So, you are no ordinary ningens. No matter, I will beat you." All of the spirit detectives started to attack him. YOu were about to run out, but stopped yourself. You knew that if you interrupted the fight, you would put them in even more danger. YOu saw that Yusuke had dropped his communicator. You opened it up and saw a little baby pop up on the screen. It was Koenma. You knew him, but weren't fully acquainted.

"_____! What are you doing there?! It's too dangerous. You have to get out of there." He was very urgent.

"No" You said simply. "I will not leave. I heard everyhting that you said and I am not leaving. I will not be pushed around anymore. I will do what I think is right." You had a stern voice and an unwavering stoic face.

"Okay, just don't get caught. You may be able to help. I can transfer you some extra spirit energy, but you can't use it to fight. If one of the detectives is injured in any way, you can heal them with it." You nodded.

"Anything to help." You felt a tingling in your body and when it stopped, you felt very energized. "Thank you Koenma." You closed the communicator and watched the battle. So far, it looked as if, the detectives were winning because they were getting all of the shots in, but you saw that they were very fatigued and the demon just had a smirk on his face. He didn't even lose a sweat.

"So, this is the limit to ningens. I thought that it would be more fun, but I guess I was wrong." He lifted his bulky hand and a ball of pure energy formed. "Now it is time for you to DIE!" He yelled as he let the ball of energy fly towards them. Everything went in slow motion from then on. The ball of energy hurling towards your beloved and your friends. Them trying to get away, but the energy ball was too big. You got up and tripped. The ball exploded and you heard the agonized screams of the ones you loved. You got up and ran over to the bodies that lay on the ground. You used your energy to give them a chance to live, but you saw the condition that Kurama was in.

"______." You heard a struggling Yusuke say. "Kurama isn't going to make it. He jumped in front of us..cough.... at the last minute. He took most of the hit." You couldn't believe it. The one that you love was about to die infront of you. You looked down at him. Him. Kurama. Your protector. Your lover. Your life. Your everything. Tears welled up in your eyes and one lone tear ran down your cheek.

"Kurama. You are not going to die. You wont. You can't. You have a promise to keep remember?" You heard a sickening laugh and you turned around suddenly to see the ugly beast that killed your love and almost killed your friends. "You." You said in a dangerously low voice.

"Ningen emotions are so weak. You all will suffer the consequences for opposing the great Kamien." You weren't listening to him.

"You." You said again in the same voice. Your eyes looked at the beast again and they were glowing. "I am ALREADY SUFFERING YOU INSOLENT BASTARD. I WILL KILL YOU!!!" You yelled at the top of your lungs. You heard him laugh again. "Stop laughing. You think this is funny? STOP LAUGHING!!!" You yelled again. You stood up and your eyes glowed even more. "You will suffer." You looked again at the slowly dieing body of your love. "You will suffer. YOU WILL SUFFER!!" Just then, the energy that Koenma gave you multiplied by 100000 and was now pure energy. You heard a cough and stopped. You turned to Kurama and saw him open his eyes. "Kurama!" You knelt beside him.

"_____? What are you doing here? You ....coughcough....you shouldn't be here." He was having a hard time breathing. You let your tears overflow and you cried. "Why are you crying?"

"Because.....I love you so much. I can't lose you." You whispered.

"Who said you are going to lose me?" He put his hand on your cheek and you leaned down and kissed him. "You will never lose me. Remember. I will always love you. Always." He drifted into an enternal sleep.

"Kurama...I will always love you too." You were holding onto his hand and then put in gently down. Your tear stained face put into a serious countenance. YOu stood up with an emotionless face on. "You are not dead Kurama. You are not. I wont let you die. I can't let you die." Your whole body glowed and you were engulfed in a bright red light. YOu turned towards the monster who was just staring at all of you.

"Hahahahahaha...Love? That is for the weak..." You cut him off.

"NO!! LOVE IS FOR THE ONES WITH HEARTS!!!! AND YOU? YOU WONT DONT HAVE ONE AND I'LL MAKE SURE THAT YOU NEVER GET ONE!!" The energy that Koenma gave you suddenly exploded and everyone that was in the 100 foot radius was engulfed in the light. Koenma transported the bodies of your friends and Kurama to Reikai. Kamien was nowhere to be found after that. There was a huge whole in Makai from the blast. You collasped and laid there thinking and wondering when they were going to get you so that you could see Kurama again. 'He isn't dead. I know it.' You thought and you went into a dreamless sleep. Unbeknownst to you, you would be having those for a long time.

After that incident, you were sent to Koenma. He told you that your emotions made the energy multiply and that is how you were able to kill Kamien. You weren't really listening though. "Where is Kurama." You asked with no emotion in your voice. Everyone's face fell.

[Cuzzy]

"______, Kurama wont be coming back anytime soon. He is...." You cut Koenma off.

"I don't care if it isn't soon. As long as I get to see him again. I know that I will." Everyone looked at you with sympathy, but you didn't see it for you were looking down the whole time. YOu wouldn't lift your head until Kurama called your name again. "I will be at home if you need me. I wont go anywhere until Kurama comes back." You turned and left. You kept your promise. You didn't go anywhere but your house and the park bench. 'Our place. Kurama. You will come back.' That winter, there was no snow. It was like, earth was waiting until you and Kurama were together again for it to snow. It was like who ever you passed, be it human or not, felt your sadness and longing radiating off of you. Every winter there was no snow. Everyday of every winter, you would wait for Kurama to come and watch to see if the snow would come. But every time, it was the same.

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Now//

You were sitting on the bench again. Waiting for him again. You parents were always worried about you. You still went to school, but you would never go during the winter. They tried asking you what was the matter, but you didn't answer. Nothing was the matter. You were just waiting for your love to show. They tried everything to make you talk to them. But you just wouldn't. Yusuke and the others would come over sometimes and see you looking really pale and sickly. They would ask if you wanted to go out, but you always just shook your head. They pleaded, but you just shook your head everytime they asked. Everyone was worried about you. You didn't know why though. All you were doing was waiting. You were waiting for him. You would wait until the end of time to see him again. You were always saying to yourself that he was alive and that he was just out of the country or in Makai doing a mission. Everynight you would have the same dream. Nothing. Total Blackness. A dreamless sleep.

'Kurama, come back soon. The snow wont hold forever. You will come and I will be waiting, my love.' Your last thoughts before drifting into memories of the past.



~If missing you could blacken the stars, there would be no midnight show. If missing you could make it rain, the seas would overflow. If missing you could make it hot, there would be deserts all around. If missing you could silence noise, the earth would have no sound.~

The End